
Getting a 5, but for what?
Math in high school can be a torture. Trying to learn concepts that have no direct connection to our lives as a student, many fall and lose interest. And it’s not their fault.
Why am I taking BC Calculus? Why should I take the AP Exam? Throughout this whole year, I saw no practical use of calculus in my life. I saw no beauty, no elegance, I only saw the board filled with dy/dx and integrals. Does it develop me into a critical thinker or a problem solver? If we were learning fundamental ideas behind calculus, comparing Newton and Leibniz, and proving theorems, I might be able to believe that. But no. We’re here, solving problems to get a 5 on the AP exam. To impress the colleges with a meaningless number that supposedly represents our ability to do math. To escape my mom’s horror and consternation—and the inevitable, “what happened?”—as if a 5 were a guarantee.
There’s no meaning behind solving these problems; it’s merely my attempt to escape the pressure of my environment.
It’s no wonder math becomes a torture.
I hope that there will come a day when math has no direct impact on my life. Maybe then, I could hope to truly learn math, discovering beauty behind the ugly façade it is forced to wear.